Don't Panic!

Have you ever run into someone you knew from FOREVER ago, and then all of the sudden, you feel like you don't know them outside of the memories you shared? Then you bring ye olde times up, and they look at you with this blank eyed look that says, "Haha, yeah, you're living in the past!"
I hate living with my head in the past, but sometimes aside from all the grief that history holds, I always seem to find one good memory that I would love to go back to and relive.

There's a girl I know pretty well who comes asking why she feels like the person she is today, is a thousand miles away from the person she was last year?

I know that God says he knows us inside and out, he's counted every hair on our head; God also knows the number of the stars. And yet, stars change, sometimes they get warmer, sometimes they get WAY warmer, and other times...they just explode.
Haha, that's what life feels like! We start to change further into the person God has made us every year, but we don't change from who we are, just like the star is the same star as it was before it exploded! ;)
I a lot of times feel like my life is exploding from change--of all kinds.

 I think so many times Christains use the phrase, "God made you special," without REALLY believing it for themselves. They'll gladly say that to someone else on the street, but to accept it themselves is a lot harder of a challenge.
How can we say something like that to someone else, and not truly believe it about ourselves? If we don't then we're sending a mixed message! Also, you're putting yourself down. When I say that to someone without believing it for myself, I feel like I'm saying, "You're more special to God than I am, you're more equipped and talented than I am..."
Yeah, I know, it's a pretty pathetic story! But that's what happens to me all the time; but only because I need to start learning that I'm just as special, and God loves me just as much as anyone else.

Just because you're moving further into YOUR character doesn't mean the person you were doesn't exist anymore, it simply means that you're growing further into the person God made you to be!
I'm who I am right now, and tomorrow I'll will be even more of who I am without trying because tomorrow is a step in the future; but think of it like this: Every day, you're a day older than you were yesterday, it doesn't make you old, it simply makes you one step into the future that you weren't in yesterday! That's how moving into your character works!

SO! My epic conclusion is this...don't panic if you're star explodes, life truly does get better--life isn't always a black hole!
My advice to all the readers who have or is going through this, don't be afraid to let yourself shine, stand out and be who you are, because...(dare I say it)...you're SPECIAL!
I love you guys!
And remember, don't panic.
~Wren
If you have any questions or comments I'd love to help/reply.